Monday, February 08, 2010
omg seriously feeling veryyyy confused now i wish i had a pensieve to sort my thoughts out haha i feel like i'm at the crossroads of so many junctions haha going mad, and there's not just one crossroad but well there's a lot of crossroads la :O
and the whole uni thing is seriously just getting me very very frustrated omg i think the prob now is that i have too many possibilities and there are just so many other 'what ifs' out there, it's driving me mad la how am i to know where to go from here?
and wells after all it's
my next 10 years, and ultimately i guess
I am the one who has to make a good choice, go to a nice uni and get a nice scholarship so i can just, yeah, not feel too horrid about life. not good to be jaded about life at such a young age eh? :p and ultimately, I am going to be the one studying there for 4 years, and I am going to be the one serving the 6 year bond, so yeah i wish i could just, like refine my thought process and make this judgment by myself. don't want any more other opinions, blah to clutter my mind :/ in the end it all boils down to what i really want i guess, but omg so many things to consider, and i am at the mercy of the scholarship boards and other people omg, why do things have to get so complicated? and why can't the unis freaking reply me quickly so i know where i can actually go from here?
and i wish i had the power to tell the future. cos then i'd be able to know what my fate is, and how my life will unfold. knowing some things for sure would definitely put my mind at ease.
Ploetzlich fuehle ich mich so allein.
